"I love you."
I always be the invisible girl, as what everybody labels me. It's true. I like to be alone by myself. Open up to many fake people is like wasting time and energy which I can't afford. And there you are.
It's funny that I never pay attention about who I met last year, due to unfortunate series of event. Sometimes I just wish that I knew you earlier. Within a short period of time, you let me enter your little beautiful crazy world, and I don't wanna go every where else ever since.
You told me that when you get too close to someone, their habit somehow will be yours too soon. It happens to me now. It's somewhat true. I saw you're writing once and the next thing I know, it's been my favorite thing to do. I have always been in love with poetry, but I've never had the right person to write it for, until you. I write about you a lot.
I've never planned to have this kind of feeling, and I don't want you to feel the same too. At one point of time, that feeling will just fade and people change. We cannot afford to be fixed, fact is we are still broken. The past may have left us behind but we still have the scars it caused. And I know your heart had stopped beating for someone long time ago and you don't want to open up new wound. Your heart just can't. I completely understand how it feels and my heart can't too. But ever since you let me listen to your heart beating for the first time, I've started to fall in love with its rhyme. Not everyone get that privilege.
You told me about things and stories you don't share with anyone else. And at the end of it you will always ask why you are telling me all of that and then with one look, you smile. How I love stories with details, sequence, rythm, long and alive. It's like part of me is there experiencing your stories. You don't know how much I truly enjoy it. Not only that, I love it when everytime I ask you to sing, you will pick your guitar and start singing. Something about you fascinate me. And I know you've stolen something from inside of me.
Label is not for us. We do everything that makes us happy. You with your own life, me with my own life. I will never ever stop you from doing something that make u feel alive and I will never want to change you. I love the idea of freedom. And i don't care whatever you did in your past, I will always like you for everything that you've done wrong. I've seen the beautiful side of yours. They're just so beautiful that I can't even describe it with words.
You let me go inside your circle, meet your friends, talk about weird stuffs with them, laugh, laugh and laugh and I still don't understand what it is. We're friends with feelings of everything and nothing at the same time. You asked me once if I can trust you because you yourself cannot trust you. I trust you. But still there's the hardest part of believing something in someone, like when you said that you love me last night, I don't know if it's for real. And I replied...
"I hate you."
Then we both laughed and said good night. It was the awkward moment ever. Which part of insane is that to reply "I hate you" when someone tell you "I love you".
P/S: I know you were joking. I love you too munchkin! And yes, this is a joke :)
